So I lack motivation.
So I lack inspiration.
So I lack intuition.
And you want me to update my blog properly. There's nothing to blog about. Anything currently in my head is either typical or unexceptional, and I'm not one to write about that; nor am I one with the gift to make such things that interesting, now am I?
Seriously. Just look at it. It's all commonplace, just too ... usual. I mean, we just came back from the holidays. Is there anything noteworthy about that? See, it's just the same, old, 'Oh-Mrs-Nair-Come-Already-Chiong-Back-To-Your-Seats' routine. Sure, I could write about that and such, but would you enjoy reading it? Probably yes, probably no. But I guess not.
Okay, so schooling isn't that, well, exhilarating now either. Everything appears so orthodox now. A bunch of pencils, a cluster of pens. And what do they do? Homework. Or maybe not. But hey. Sometimes you just don't wanna do it. Can't help it, can you? But still every now and then you still get this pseudo-guilty feeling. It's just like blogging; you initially have it all up in your head, and you're already ready to start on it. But once you touch the keyboard, you just stare the at the monitor blankly, all your motivation lost.
So I've given my two cents' worth my current school life. What else could I cover now? Well, maybe holidays? Goals, you say. Of course I set some. But how many of them have I fulfilled? Heh. Just another bunch of empty promises. What happened to 'SM-let's-do-math'? What happened to 'SM-let's-learn-2-words-everyday'? Sure, CCA's fruitful, in a sense. At least our performance's better now. But nothing much else has been done; I mean, unless you count DotA in. 7 matches daily for the first half of the holidays isn't exactly what I'd call conducive.
But I guess it's too late writing about all this now. It's all over. I can't just throw myself a few weeks back and try to keep my own words again. So I ask myself, 'if I make amends like that, what can I do?' And then I answer myself, 'I'll make amends another way.' The past is gone, I tell myself. But the future isn't. Guess the only way to redeem myself again is to work harder, heh.
I just hope this isn't just another empty promise.
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K, sorry, Dylan. ;x
I couldn't reach 1000 words.
394 and my mind went blank already. ;x
But hey, you gotta give me credit right. THIS IS THE FIRST TIME IN A YEAR I ACTUALLY DID A FULLY SERIOUS POST.
NO EMOTICONS.
NO BAD PUNS.
NO SARCASM.
SUCK ON IT.
